walking with god

 
I find in my walk with God that I seem to be asking myself many questions.  What does it mean to walk with God?  I find it hard to put down in words what is in my heart and what is rolling around in my mind.  This walk with God seems to be my whole life, but then what is life?  I will say that for me the most significant thing in life is to walk with God.  I cannot say that I walk with all the answers, but I can say that I walk with the one that does.  I believe that we on earth can learn all that we need to learn and not have to wait until we pass on to heaven.

 
Walking with God will look different for everyone, and will have to do with what they have been called to do.  But this is the only part, and if we do not take up that calling and walk to God, then it will not matter what's are calldoing because one cannot walk with God if he does not choose to walk first to God.  Walking first to God is deciding to come to God and do things His way and the way that the world teaches us.  This looks very different then what most think, and is why most do not walk a close walk with the Lord.  We human’s detriment how close we walk with the Lord, not the other way around.
 
I say this, but I find myself trying to get closer and closer to the Lord, but cannot seem to get any closer.  I ask the Lord if there is any sin, or am I doing it wrong, but the only answer that I seem to understand is that time is on my side.  I asked myself what does that mean?  I find that time is my best friend and yet can be my worst enemy.  Why is this?  If we walk outside the Lords timing, then we see ourselves fighting against time, but if we are in step with the Lord, then timing is right.  We cannot beat time only work with it.  Time is something that the Lord has given us, which means that it is for our benefit.
 
The Lord does not live in time, which means that yesterday, today, and tomorrow are all the same to Him, and this is something that we do not understand other than in theory.  When we come to realise that time is on our side and that time is our friend we can then stop fighting God and walk with Him in His timing.  I believe that the lack of understanding of time is hurting the body of Christ.  For some of us, we take time for granted while others of us abuse time because we have not become friends with time.  If time is something that the Lord has put in place, then it must be more then just a clock on the wall.  It has to be living.
 
I find that time is something that we fight with because of lack of understanding.  We know that the Lord created time and that He does not live in time, but at the same time He talks to us in time.  If we look at time as something that is living, then there is grace in trying to understand, but if we look at time as something that just seems to be there, then time will only be something that we live by.  Time is always moving no matter what we do.  If we fight it, then time will seem very long, but if we learn to love it, then it will bring us closer to the one that created it.
 
For me, learning time is crucial, because I am one that wants to walk in the fullness of the Lord right now.  I want to walk hand in hand at all times and be able to see Him anytime I want.  I am talking about face to face.  To smell is breath because He is that close.  What I have found it takes much time to get to this place because I am not ready to be in this position because I am not prepared.  There are things to learn before one can get that close.  There is a significant cost that needs to be paid and most do not want to pay the cost.  So in paying the cost, we need time to go by so that we can get ready for the fullness and not just a touch that gives us goosebumps.